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Instantly. You want her. You are feeling the warmth of your own self. Your conscience assumes an instance where you are holding her by her waist, pushing her closer to you, feeling her breath, looking into her eyes. And Inside them. You are in an awe of what you see. And you keep looking. The surface has vanished from under your feet. And there are no walls. Its all mighty and passionate around. You are wobbling around a twinkling purple haze with tiny sparkling red particles and cute bright yellow leaves stuck under a greenish shiny aura. And you are getting infected by her breath. Its calling you. Her soul is reaching in to you. And it's made sensations into your chest. They are running down to your heart and affecting your breath. And you keep floating smoothly. Through sensations. Up and above. Down and below. Slowly.
Whatever she does. However she goes about the finer details of her day. A breath of fresh air has engulfed you and inspires you to take a closer look at her. To approach her. To get into her. Make her yours. You are being attracted by her aura. You start observing her without yourself knowing about it. You wont feel it but you are already a part of her life from quite afar. You are not too close for the alarms to go off but you are right there. You are left wanting to talk to her but every time, every single time, you get a restraining order from the part of your brain responsible for thought refinement. You have a lot to say. You cant say it all. Its not happening. Its not because of the world around you. But you are irritated by the thought of your incompetence of what you might say or not. But so much energy you can feel. And craving you are. That you are not afraid of any public display of affection, if the time arises, for now your souls are truly connected. Only in your mind though. And the world is the least you care about.
You want to know everything she does. Every hobby she might have. Her sensibilities. Her likes and dislikes. But you know It isn't really important all of it. You are only lost in her soul. You are floating in there. She may or may not have the type of character you think she has but you don't care about it. You don't care about her previous life. You don't care about her background. You don't care about anything because when you see her face, you are lost in it. You are standing in the eyes in it. In the smile. You try to replicate it muscle for muscle. Every expression she has is a different day. You want everything to stop. You want absolute silence. Absolute peace. The calmness of her smile. The serenity of the beauty of her face. Its calming. It has settled you down. Its something you can live with the rest of your life. You want nothing else. You are lost in it. You are there. You want to be all over it. All around it. All above it. You want to be in it. In her mind.
