Commencement

Here i commence my blog. The post before it was the lyrics of a song i had thought i would give music to.

This is something straight from my heart, its going to be melodramatic, hence immature, without being scanned by the complexities of the mind, right from the fingers, through the keyboard and onto the screen. Things that come from our heart are always full of emotions. Because it is what i am going through right now, so no matter how childish and immature it looks, i am writing it.

I have been told i am funny and friendly. Cling on to things and friends. The remark "kuch bhi" often comes to me when they don't understand my comments on their posts or when i crack a joke that nobody understands and they claim my sense of humor is somewhat of the same type. Goes wherever the camera goes. They say i am never serious about life, about everything and i accept that. I like to behave in such mannerism all the time.

It seems to me that i am trapped in this image, and that there is no way i could think of to change it, as of now. I should realize i might change it by being serious enough and doing something effective, impressive and productive and i am working on it. May be it is only me thinking too much about it or may be nobody cares that much about me that i need to care about this.

But listen to this, i feel, now i care about my image or i should if i do not, and the thought worries me because i don't want to. I was not doing it all my childhood, i don't want to do it now. But it comes in automatically. The 1st year of college and all school life, i had not even thought about things like self-respect and ego in all seriousness. I don't know how, but this just got into me, just somehow, and now its all about self-respect and ego and image and shit.

So whats happening? Everything's changing. The view with which i used to look at everybody around me is taking different angles. Friendships and relationships have started looking different. They are not the same. They are strange now. People have started ignoring or if they were already doing it since a long time, its starting to feel bad. The warmth and craziness has disappeared. Everyone tries to be serious. Professionalism should stay in the offices but It's come out and its starting to show in everyone's behavior. People and situations play with your mind. Should you be fun or not? Should you joke or not? Jokes that used to be the best have become lame and cheap. Serious dissent has erupted between the best of the bonds. Some of which, to me, were unbreakable, and chemistry between them, unfathomable.

I have got the gist of it. School life and time was different, nobody used to take life seriously. What i still think is that now, that after school, we are far apart, it is only our good nature and inbuilt innocent humanity that can keep us close. In spite of our busy schedules, the only thing that stops us from being positive in connecting to our friends once in a while are things like self-respect, ego, attitude!. My habit of reconciling with not-in-touch friends, has been taken and scanned through these uncomfortable ideologies. On a lot of occasions i have been cautioned by some of my friends about the lack of such mechanisms or 'Duniyadari' in me. Its their perception. Mine's different, which is of not giving a monkey's ass and that is because of all those things i mentioned above. I don't want them to happen all throughout my life. So at least someone has to be the joker here.

Let me elaborate through an example. It is quite lame and immature but it is what matters to a lot of 'youth' nowadays and so i have chosen it to convey a message.

Situation: I text or call some of my friends and they don't pick-up or reply... now,
1.I don get to early conclusions.
2.I keep messaging.
3.I will keep messaging in spite of no replies!
Abuse me for that, do abuse me for having no spine, but, as of now, i think we should have patience.!

I have no problems with peeps not replying to me because i have sent the message and i am satisfied, knowing the fact that the other person would read my message, laugh, and remember me for a while. I'v done my work! I have connected with him/her. Its not necessary for him/her to reply. That is how you don't let your good friends go away from you and let time have its toll on your bond. Eventually its going to fade once everyone gets all busy and serious with their lives and with their jobs and all.
4.I like to give a surprise call to someone i have not been in touch since long! It makes me happy and excited. But this habit of mine was considered to be of having no self-respect! Rather, many think its against our self-respect. 'why should we call', 'he/she should do it first', 'he does not talk to me anymore, our friendship was all fake'. To me this is narrow-mindedness and hollow-headedness both!
Many of you may differ from me!and advises n suggestions r invited!
Moral--> Please go n make an effort from your side n connect to a long lost friend. Be frank rather than ignorant about how you want to manage relationships. Self-respect and ego manifested in one-self in a positive would always be fruitful!

Keep a nice smile on your face all the time and don't give in to the world. The rest is on 'em! U just have fun and greet 'em! Surely u'll make more friends. Words by the GREAT AAKAR MATHUR :P :P \m/
Phew!